Riley walked in the door last Monday carrying his front tooth in his hand. During Martial Arts his teeth collided with Nick’s head sending his front tooth literally flying.
Three times he has lost this tooth now. A sidewalk curb, a parked car and now a friends head…this third time was the charm… with orthodontic work complete and old enough to now to get a crown we decided it was high time for a more permanent fix. A lengthy dental visit commenced that attested to Riley’s stamina for extreme pain.
While I no longer wince when Riley walks in the door with a tooth in hand, nor do I conjure up unrealistic scenarios where Riley’s childhood is doomed as he endures years of teasing and torture any longer, but I do wonder how many more times this affliction will nuisance him and I have always dreaded the pain that would surely ensue from crowning a front tooth at such a young age - when nerves are so easily exposed in
adolescence.
But Riley was a trooper – even after countless injections couldn’t numb the pain. I think the idea of stronger remedy fueled his endurance to just get through the procedure one final time. With a temporary crown in place we now patiently await the (hopefully) final visit to the dentist to repair this impairment that has become the bane of Riley’s childhood.
My goal now is to keep the crown securely in place well into Riley’s adult life.
Just when I had become accustomed to the news of a lost permanent tooth and found myself taking pride in my ability to put inevitable childhood mishaps into realistic perspectives – keeping my fear in check, focusing on the actuality of each situation, recognizing the reality and not assuming the improbable worst - I encountered another childhood collision that humbled me.
I’m not actually that tough Mom that takes all her children’s bumps, bruises and breaks in stride after all. Despite our past stitches, head wounds and broken teeth I failed to remain calm, cool and collected when Nico tripped getting in to bed and planted his face directly into the bed rail on Thursday night. My knees buckled, my hands shook ferociously and my heart raced violently as I imagined the worst – unable to see the damage through pouring blood I was certain Nico’s nose had either been completely severed or was certainly smashed into his skull.
I panicked… I cried… I prayed desperately…
We were all in the room preparing to give our nightly “kisses from everyone” when Nico fell. The sound of the impact sent chills through my spine and I held my breath as Roger picked up our crying babe to assess the damage. Roger is much more relaxed in emergencies so when I saw him panic I nearly lost it. I had to make that split second decision – crumble into a ball of fear or fight through my terror, comfort my babe and get him to the hospital without falling apart.
We bundled him up and applied pressure to his bloody nose as we made our way to the hospital. The amount of blood was alarming but by the time we reached the emergency room Nico was sitting up wondering what all the fuss was about. He was put out to stitch up the wound on his nose and apply suture glue to his cheek. He awoke a bit grumpy still perplexed by the monitors and begging to go home.
After a mere 5 hours of sleep Nico awoke Friday morning no worse for the wear, oblivious to the wounds on his face. He caught a glimpse of himself in a mirror later that morning and did a double take inching closer to get a good look at his bruised and battered face. “What’s that on my nose? Get it off!” he naively announced. He bounded through the house all day bumping into everything despite my attempts to steer him clear of any impact to his wounds. Obviously he recovered quite quickly – his physical wounds went unnoticed by this innocent babe but my psyche remains forever scarred.
I couldn’t bear to look at his bed, reliving the fall, my knees buckling and hands going weak each time it replayed in my mind. The bed frame was packed up and immediately put on Craig’s list – a mattress on the floor now deemed to be the safest place for my clumsy child to sleep.
Seven stitches later, a bit of suture glue, some good hallucinogen drugs and a minor scar to remind Nico of this incident that he will unlikely ever remember – but a memory that I will always replay in my mind and forever feel responsible for. Nico was our little trooper – me not so much! I will never be the brave one in emergencies that involve my children.
I’m not actually that tough Mom that takes all her children’s bumps, bruises and breaks in stride after all. Despite our past stitches, head wounds and broken teeth I failed to remain calm, cool and collected when Nico tripped getting in to bed and planted his face directly into the bed rail on Thursday night. My knees buckled, my hands shook ferociously and my heart raced violently as I imagined the worst – unable to see the damage through pouring blood I was certain Nico’s nose had either been completely severed or was certainly smashed into his skull.
I panicked… I cried… I prayed desperately…
We were all in the room preparing to give our nightly “kisses from everyone” when Nico fell. The sound of the impact sent chills through my spine and I held my breath as Roger picked up our crying babe to assess the damage. Roger is much more relaxed in emergencies so when I saw him panic I nearly lost it. I had to make that split second decision – crumble into a ball of fear or fight through my terror, comfort my babe and get him to the hospital without falling apart.
We bundled him up and applied pressure to his bloody nose as we made our way to the hospital. The amount of blood was alarming but by the time we reached the emergency room Nico was sitting up wondering what all the fuss was about. He was put out to stitch up the wound on his nose and apply suture glue to his cheek. He awoke a bit grumpy still perplexed by the monitors and begging to go home.
After a mere 5 hours of sleep Nico awoke Friday morning no worse for the wear, oblivious to the wounds on his face. He caught a glimpse of himself in a mirror later that morning and did a double take inching closer to get a good look at his bruised and battered face. “What’s that on my nose? Get it off!” he naively announced. He bounded through the house all day bumping into everything despite my attempts to steer him clear of any impact to his wounds. Obviously he recovered quite quickly – his physical wounds went unnoticed by this innocent babe but my psyche remains forever scarred.
I couldn’t bear to look at his bed, reliving the fall, my knees buckling and hands going weak each time it replayed in my mind. The bed frame was packed up and immediately put on Craig’s list – a mattress on the floor now deemed to be the safest place for my clumsy child to sleep.
Seven stitches later, a bit of suture glue, some good hallucinogen drugs and a minor scar to remind Nico of this incident that he will unlikely ever remember – but a memory that I will always replay in my mind and forever feel responsible for. Nico was our little trooper – me not so much! I will never be the brave one in emergencies that involve my children.
But I am thankful for my little (and big) troopers and I am looking forward to a new week and anxiously hoping to keep our future wounds to minor scrapes and bruises.
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